Tuesday, February 23, 2010

the lowdown

okay, here's the deal: I started this blog to humorously chronicle my various adventures and mishaps in my life since I moved to vegas. I didn't ever intend for it to be anything like a diary, where i actually talked about "stuff."

but I'm at a really unhappy place in my life right now (kind of hate it, actually), and I'm just trying to hang on until I can get out of here. I could fake being happy (like I've been trying to do for a while and failing) and try to write funny, happy posts, or I could actually write how I feel. I'm just too tired to keep faking it, and I don't want this to turn into some sort of whiny, emotional-baggage-ridden rant zone. (I also have a secret fear that people will laugh at me if I say how I feel, but that's a whole different session on Siggy's couch).

So that's it. When I have good days (as I'm sure I will), I'll try and find something funny to post, but it's gonna be pretty scant until I get myself better.

I really do appreciate people who tell me that they enjoy reading what I write and encourage me to write more often. I just can't right now.

I'm really sorry.

<3, Sarah

5 comments:

Alison said...

I must say I have thoroughly enjoyed your adventures in vegas. But since I just found it, I'm the lack of posting hasn't affected me nearly as much as others.
Get yourself better and we'll all be here for you if you need us.
By the way, in case I ever forgot to tell you, I had a great time with you when you came home and we saw No Doubt. SOOOO much fun!

Alison said...

and one more thing, even though you're my 5th girlfriend (to be honest I don't remember who the other four were) I still love you even though i'm bad at communicating with my friends. :)
and the "words" on the word verification are so odd they make me want to giggle.

amy elizabeth said...
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amy elizabeth said...

Sarah,
I'm sorry things are poopy right now. The ups and downs are inevitable. I would rather know people who are real than always doing this fake-it-till-you-make-it thing. I have not love for that nonsense. I think it's OK to write things that aren't funny sometimes. Would we know what funny was without the emotions of sadness and tragedy and hurt? Don't apologize for being yourself. Take the time you need for you to keep you going.

When are you moving to IN? Is life lined up out there or are you waiting until you get there? You're always more than welcome out here in NC for a visit!

xo

Anonymous said...

I just read this today, (4/14) which is probably a good thing since if I had read it earlier I would have been in Vegas right away to bring you home. We are less than 3 months in counting now....and I know that life with us will not be perfect, but hopefully it will be tolerable until you find the next place!! Just know that dad and I love you more than we ever say!